just talkin...

So I had the weirdest dream last night...it was so vivid and I had flashbacks all day today. I won't write out the story because it's one of those dreams where it only makes sense in your mind and when you write it out it sounds ridiculous.

Basically, the moral of the dream was that there was a problem in my life and I used a person who I trusted and cared about to solve my problem. I decided to get married because it would solve the problem and I wouldn't have to take care of myself anymore. Then, later in the dream, I had the three boys from my last relationships and I was taking turns kissing each of them. It was like I was testing each one out to see who I liked the most...it was really weird.

So today, I was talking with my roommate, and we decided that at the core, people don't change. When you're apart from people such as family or friends, it's the good times and happy memories that stick out in your mind. You forget about the times when you wanted to kill them or when you simply clashed in every possible way. Once you meet up again though, those bad habits that annoy you so much stick out like a sore thumb. You are reminded why you separated from them or why you didn't stay in touch as much. People are creatures of habit, myself included. But people stay the same whether you like it or not. Either you mesh or clash or fall somewhere in between. Of course this is not black and white because you can still love or enjoy someone even if they do things that annoy you sometimes (i'm not a heartless bitch i promise)

anyway, it's ashleigh and paul's wedding on saturday and I can't wait to experience something so important in someone's life. Marriage is such a milestone in so many lives and something I know I've dreamed and imagined for a long time. Though I'm a long way away from ever going through a marriage myself, I want to look at Ashleigh and Paul as an example for what I hope I will have for myself one day.